I met someone I’ve been looking for
A dream that I had already dreamed
His touch was warm, but then turned heavy
Lingering in places I cannot name
I moved on, and the guilt lingers
Is it wrong to let go so quickly?
Maybe I should’ve felt more
Am I a monster?
Then she appeared
Gentle, glowing, soft
I felt something warm
When I saw her smile
Suddenly I’m caught between
The persona I display
And who my heart longs to be
A path, which I thought was straight
Took so many twists and turns
Taking me places I didn’t want to see
Taking me where I’m supposed to be
It’s messy
It’s loud
It’s silent
It’s me, maybe
and maybe that’s okay.